What’s In A Name?

I’m sure you’re wondering how I came up with the name for my blog. I call myself The Muse, because I tend to receive inspiration from inspiring others. I always feel wonderful when I can make someone happy with a kind word, or a smile, or my work. I try to be a very positive and optimistic person. I can’t honestly say that I am all happiness and light all of the time, but when I am on, I am really on.  

As far as being a diva, I have been told by some friends that I can be such a diva (in a good way), usually because of how I dress up to go out, or how I choose to handle my relationships, or how I don’t allow the bad things in life to get me down for very long. I like the term Diva because it is really a state of mind. It is a way that a woman carries herself, taking care of her appearance, her own well being, and generally being cute.  Keep in mind however, no one is cute all of the time and I am no exception. In addition, a Diva is determined, strong, and usually a go-getter; all qualities that I have always aspired to have.

I am also sure that you have noticed that I used the term Bootylicious in my title. Frankly I have a large badoncky that I am very proud of. I am the girl who never asks, “does my butt look big in this?” Instead, I ask, “My butt does look big in this right?” It has been a part of me as long as I have been on this Earth and no matter how much weight I lose, I would be very upset if I ever lost my booty or the bottom ever dropped out. I think it is an asset (no pun intended) and I think it is sexy.  And I think that every woman should appreciate herself and accept who she is, big booty, curves, flaws and all. 

Put it all together and there you have it,  Super Sexy Bootylicious Diva Muse: here to inspire, motivate and offer my own unique brand of fabulousness to the world.

Who I Really Am

Sometimes I think that this blog will truly reflect my life. Scattered but filled with possibility. Other than what my profile says about me being an artist, my age and other superficial information, I am also an Army wife of 18 years ( which I could fill this whole blog telling you about), I have two teenagers, a son 17 and a daughter who is 14. I have lived all over the United States and in Korea. Korea was my favorite tour because it was so different from anything that I had ever known. I recently returned back to the states 9 months ago.

I grew up in Los Angeles with my parents, my daddy was a minister and my mother who was kind of like a missionary. I also have several brothers and sisters but I am the only product of my mother and father’s marriage. By the time I was born, all of my brothers and sisters were pretty much grown so I was born into a world of adults. Until I started kindergarten at 5 years old, I was surrounded by adults. The few kids that I did spend time with were mainly at church, but I really didn’t have many people my age in my life when I was very young. So I have never really felt much like I fit in anywhere.

The whole time growing up, I thought I would be a famous actress, so did everybody in my family especially my daddy who I think is still rather disappointed that I’m not. Although I’m not a drama queen, my life has been pretty dramatic, so it is not farfetched that a life in front of an audience would be my greatest aspiration. But over the years, and not without trying,  it just didn’t work out that way 

Instead,  I am an Artist. I paint, and take pictures and I participate in creative endeavors where I can observe people and document what I see. Where I can express myself and show the world who I am without revealing too much of what is on the inside.

I have also had a very colorful life.  I have endured a lot of ugliness, and I have seen a lot of beauty. I’ve been the good little wife and mother at times, and at other times, not so much. All of these experiences good and bad, have made me who I am today.

I don’t know where this is going, or how it is going to turn out.  I don’t even know if I am going to like writing about my life and my journey for people to read and comment on, but I do know that it is time for me to stop hiding and project my identity to a waiting world.  So sit back and enjoy the ride and hopefully I will inspire you and, in turn, you will inspire me too.